"a good story cuts both ways"

i think
if i had not spent
so much energy
buying time
i'd have the power
to be angry
i am sorry
for being
self-righteous enough
to make this
a prayer:
i'm not asking
for wisdom.
I already know
what Jesus
would do.
i am not,
under any circumstance,
worthy of this
the rule for
this notebook
is scribbles only belong
to misspellings
that aside,
no excuses,
no looking back,
You are so clever
that you surpass
any false dichotomy
Your omnipotence still
allows our hands
free will,
no,
love,
this is not
a storybook
and i believe Job
to be as real
as our relation
to his plight
and this is
hardly suffering
but what else
have i to trace?
i'm an artist,
motherfuckers,
the cynic in me
assures you
that this sort
of prayers
is prettier
than all of my
excuses
for theology.