post-prayer self-reassurance

there are some who say
i am foolish.
say, immediate sacrifice
is indicitive of my/our well-being
they believe i do not forsee
the weight of consequence,
and though i (often) see myself
on their side
of the line,
i am willing to believe
that future sacrifice
is appropriate.
who is to say that
i know nothing
of results?
if destiny
or God
controls our future
i am taking this present in my hands
i believe in free will
so don't call this
a rebellion.
like the last drip of water
from an apple blossom
we are quiet revolution(arie?)s
in freefall
just below the wind tunnel,
and i muse to myself
that reflections must
never grow tired
of their expression filled silence...